Brittany Maynard, a 29-year-old with terminal brain cancer who had initially declared her intention to end her life on Nov. 1, will not be dying this week.

“I still feel good enough, and I still have enough joy, and I still laugh and smile with my family and friends enough that it doesn’t seem like the right time right now,” she says in a video released on Wednesday by end-of-life choice advocacy group Compassion & Choices.

Maynard was diagnosed with stage 4 glioblastoma, a malignant brain tumor, in April; doctors gave her approximately six months to live. So instead of letting her cancer determine her last day, she had chosen to commit suicide on Nov. 1 under Oregon’s Death with Dignity Act so she could celebrate her husband’s birthday on Oct. 30. She planned to use a prescription from her doctor, but Maynard has since reversed that decision.

“It will come, because I feel myself getting sicker. It’s happening each week,” she says in the video.

Maynard recounts instances of having multiple seizures a day, not being able to say her husband’s name and even experiencing temporary paralysis. She adds that she will continue to monitor her symptoms and take the prescribed life-ending medication when the choice is still hers to make.

“The worst thing that could happen to me is that I wait too long because I’m trying to seize each day… I somehow have my autonomy taken away from me by my disease, because of the nature of my cancer,” she says.

Maynard originally spoke about her decision to die in a video released on in early October. The video has amassed more than 9 million views to date.

Following the release, Maynard says in her new video, people criticized her decision, calling her selfish — or were skeptical of the severity of her health issues.

When people criticize me for not waiting longer, or, you know, whatever they’ve decided is best for me, it hurts, because really, I risk it every day, every day that I wake up … I think sometimes people look at me and they think. ‘Well you don’t look as sick as you say you are,’ which hurts to hear, because when I’m having a seizure and I can’t speak afterwards, I certainly feel as sick as I am.

Others helped Maynard achieve a bucket list dream of visiting the Grand Canyon with her family. She traveled to the park last week and posted pictures on her website of her family and husband enjoying the view.

Maynard is telling her story to the world, she says, in hopes that other states will implement Death with Dignity laws as Oregon and four other states have already done.

“My goal, of course, is to influence this policy for positive change,” she says. “I would like to see all Americans have access to the same health care rights.”

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